As I left the gym the other night I couldn’t help but smile at how far I’ve come. I’ve struggled with my weight my entire life. I remember being in 4th grade and joining a weight-loss group with women three or four times my age because I weighed 122lbs.
People always want to know what I’m doing that is so effective, or what tricks are working best, and the truth is, the answer is simple. Eating healthy + being active (the kind that gets your heart pumping) = weight loss. There aren’t any fancy diets, or crazy workouts. It’s about learning a new way of thinking.
For the longest time I never felt worthy of living a full life because I was taught that unless I was skinny I wasn’t worthy.
It’s a sad reality but that’s what happens when you have an adult buying you diet pills and paying you to lose weight while you’re still in high school.
As crazy as it sounds it took a random boy (who isn’t so random anymore) telling me just what I needed to hear at that moment. I’m also a firm believer that my heart was finally ready and open to hear what he had to say.
“Stop hiding behind your weight and let everyone else see the girl I know you are.”
That conversation changed my life and I’m forever thankful for those words.
Just like any change in life it hasn’t always been pretty. There have been tears, blood, lots of cursing, and lots of sweat. I’ve vowed on plenty of occasions I’d never go back to the gym, but I somehow always do.
I’ve whispered to myself “Maybe I’m just meant to be big”. Then I remind myself that I didn’t come this far to quit now. I’ve eaten 100% healthy one day and then binged on every fast food place in Salt Lake City the next. I’ve learned that one day I can be high on life and the next all those depressing feelings can be right back at the center of attention.
I’ve also found a confidence I never had before. I’ve learned that it’s okay to not have unhealthy and toxic relationships with people and still love them. I’ve learned that I am worthy of every aspiration and goal I have for myself.
If I know one thing it’s this – you are worthy of everything this life has to offer. Never forget that.
Surround yourself with good people. People who challenge you, people who love you, people who want to see you succeed, but more importantly, people who cheer for you on the good and bad days.
Ps. I don’t like running and rocky road ice cream will forever hold a special place in my heart.